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I'm utterly grateful for the gift of people, honestly. But when all is said and done, I'm still the one left with this awful sense of emptiness, this void that I cannot seem to fill.
I have people calling me around the clock, reaching out on WhatsApp, and coming over just so I have company. And guyyyyy, it's been incredibly comforting. Today, two of my friends came around. Just as one was leaving, the next was arriving, and that was somehow the highlight of my day.
But when they all left, it was just me and my thoughts again. Me and this aching heart, watching my world fall apart right before my eyes, without being able to do anything about it.
Dearest reader, grief is so personal. As much as people can show up for us, hold our hands, sit with us, pray for us and remind us that we are loved, there is a part of grief that we must experience alone. Nobody can quite feel the weight of another person's loss. Nobody can fully understand the depth of what is missing.
And that's what makes grief so difficult. The world keeps moving, people go about their lives, but somewhere within you, everything has come to a standstill.
I'm learning to be grateful for the people who show up while allowing myself to hurt when they leave. Both can exist at the same time.
Some losses are simply too personal for words, and some days, all we can do is take them one breath at a time.
@favvy_Okwansđź–¤.
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