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One thing about me is that I’m genuinely impressed with myself o.

Not in a proud, arrogant way. More like… I actually rate myself. And the funny thing is, it’s not even follow come. I learned it. I built it. For someone who used to have such shitty self esteem, I’ve really come far, and I don’t take that growth for granted.

There’s this WhatsApp quote I see a lot, it says, “Be with someone who sees you as a big deal.” And every time I see it, I always think, no, be the kind of person that sees you as a big deal first.

Because truth be told, when you don’t rate yourself, it’s like you’re silently giving people permission to underrate you too. People will walk over you with dirty shoes and you’ll still be smiling like it’s normal.

One poet I love once said something like, “The love you’re so desperate to receive from others, give it to yourself first.” And honestly, that thing is deep. If you want to be treated like the next best thing after sliced bread, start by treating yourself like that. If you want love, love yourself so loudly that it becomes your normal.

So yes, one of the things I love about myself is how I see myself.

This is not to say I don’t have my down days o. I do. Some days my confidence is missing, and my insecurities are doing overtime. But on the days where I really like myself, which is a lot more these days, I’m genuinely thrilled by the amazing person I am.

It feels like a discovery, you know? Like I’m meeting myself again and realizing that I can be this much, in all my perfectly imperfect ways. And the fact that I can actually see me now… ah. That’s such a flex.

Dearest reader, how do you see you?

Are you constantly beating yourself up because you flop sometimes? Do you only notice your mistakes and ignore your progress? Do you recognize the awesomeness you are, or are you too busy comparing yourself to people who are also struggling behind closed doors?

Like guyyyyy… how can you not see you?

@favvy_Okwans🖤.