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In the words of Huwa, “You invite a stranger into your life and your life becomes strange.”

There’s nothing more annoying than getting used to someone or something, and then they just switch up. It’s all shades of messed up. Because there are some of us that are so damn afraid of change.

I wouldn’t consider myself very organised, but in a sense, I am. I want to come back to a room and meet things the way I left them. I anticipate things to be the way I’m used to, and while I embrace change, there’s always a heartbreak before the adjustment.

I like to say, don’t introduce me to a setting, a vibe, a space, or whatever you can’t keep up with. It’s that simple. Because when people see good, they begin to expect good, and nothing is as heartbreaking as a failed expectation. In the words of King Solomon, hope deferred makes the heart sick.

Dearest reader, I have learnt that sometimes the pain isn’t even the loss itself, it is the shock of it. But life does not ask for our permission before it rearranges itself.

So now, I am learning to hold things with open hands. To enjoy moments without trying to trap them in permanence. To accept that something are seasons, and some feelings are temporary.

Still, I won’t pretend it doesn’t hurt. Because it does.

But maybe the heartbreak is simply the price we pay for having the courage to hope in the first place.

 @favvy_Okwans🖤.