THE THING ABOUT GRIEF

You will think you are fine until grief shows up by 3pm on a sunny day, unannounced.

One moment you are okay, functioning, the next moment, something tiny opens a door you did not plan to walk through. It could be a song, a smell, or a random pause in your day. And suddenly, grief is sitting beside you like it paid rent.

This is why busy days are the best. You may be tired. You may be drained. But at least there is no time and no space to wander into memory lane. No room for your mind to start pulling files it should have left closed.

That's how I had so much time on my hands today , and just like that, moments and memories rushed me like bandits. No warning, no mercy, one memory just opened another. One feeling led to ten more. I was not even trying to remember, it just happened.

That is the tricky thing about grief. It does not always come loud. Sometimes it comes quiet, dressed like reflection, sounding like nostalgia, until you realise your chest feels heavy and your eyes sting a little.

You are fine, until you are not, and both can be true in the same day.

Dearest reader, Is your memory your greatest enemy too? When the noise dies down and the day slows, does your mind also betray you with things you were not ready to feel again?

@favvy_Okwans🖤.