SURREAL

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I lost a relative today, and it feels so unreal.

I came home from church full of excitement, only to be met with the devastating news of my cousin's death. When I was younger, before she left Nigeria, she doted on me endlessly. People often mistook her for my mother because of how inseparable we were. She was more than just a cousin. 

I’ve always hated hearing about death, but losing someone so special to me feels unbearable. At first, I couldn’t even cry—I was too shocked to move. It wasn’t until the reality began to sink in that the tears came, and I cried until I felt utterly drained.

 My energy was sapped, not just from crying but from the weight of the memories and the pain of our closeness slipping away. As I recalled how we were, it felt as though my legs would give out, as if I might collapse under the grief.

Dearest reader, have you ever lost a loved one? How did it feel? What was your grieving process like?

@favvy_Okwans🖤.