DEADLINE!



My relationship with deadlines is just crazy. I have this habit of panicking about a task until the deadline draws near before taking action. While this has its advantages, such as allowing me to deliberate on how to do the task well, which often results in a better outcome.

However, it's also bad because limited time comes with weird tension and brain strain. Unfortunately, this has become a subconscious habit.

A few weeks ago, I was given a project. It was something like three weeks ago, and I was so excited because it was an opportunity I could only dream of. However, my excitement was overshadowed by laziness and fear, which resulted in my brain not functioning properly (smiles).

Currently, the deadline for this project is in two days, and I'm just now realizing that I haven't done my best. If I don’t make the cut but know I did my best, I wouldn't feel so bad. But knowing I didn't do my best would fill me with guilt. So, I started again from scratch on something I should have finished by now.

Right now, it’s turning out the way I want, but I will have to work all night long, just as I have been working on it all day. I should be resting.

Dearest reader, don’t be like me. According to James Clear in Atomic Habits, the first step in breaking bad habits is being aware of them. Now that I see this is a habit that isn't good for me, I'd better start breaking it. Procrastination does no good, as I now know.


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