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A LITTLE BIT OF SPONTANEITY...

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I was sleeping today when I got a crazy idea. And if you know me, you would know that I come up with new ideas every day. Ideas that I never get done or follow through on. So before I had the chance to overthink myself out of it, I stood up and did it. It was far from perfect, but I had promised myself that I was done fantasizing about certain things. I had no excuses, because if I waited a while, my brain would definitely come up with a very valid reason not to do it. Doing is an extension of you. It is an expression of your being. So when we are not ready to do, it simply means we have not yet become the kind of person who can do. Out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks. Now imagine the heart lacks the abundance of a certain thing. It would be impossible and unauthentic to express it. Yet, we want abundance first before we take the first step. We want perfection. We want the right timing. And all of this only keeps stretching the moment further away. Dearest reader, every...
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“There are some sins you are not committing right now simply because you cannot afford them.” KU There is something about exposure. It reveals parts of you that you never knew existed. Sometimes the reason you do not act a certain way or do certain things is not because you are completely upright or a good person, but because those qualities and tendencies in you have not had the opportunity to show themselves. The moment the opportunity lands, boom, everything changes. That is why people say never say it can never be you. The way it will be you might shock you and leave you struggling to recover. My boss always says the loyalty of a poor man is only proven when he tastes a degree of wealth. If he is still loyal when he no longer needs you or fears losing you, then he is truly loyal. Dearest reader, before you beat your chest and say you cannot do a thing, be able to afford it first. In the words of Pojomatics, a truly good man is one who has tasted the borders of evil and then decided...
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I sat in an office today and the first thing I was asked was this; "If you had one minute with Dangote in an elevator, what business would you pitch to him and how would you do it?" I laughed a bit because it caught me off guard. Not because I did not know what to say, but because I was not expecting the question at all. What surprised me the most was how fast the answer came, I did not have to think too hard. It was not perfect, but it was honest. I knew what I wanted to talk about, i knew the idea I would mention, I knew the direction I would take, even if it still needs work. Afterwards, the man asking the question said something that stayed with me. He said he asks that question often and many people struggle with it. Not because they are not smart, but because they have never paused to think about themselves that way. And it made me think. Maybe growth does not always look like having everything figured out. Sometimes it looks like having a rough idea. I am n...
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GIVE IT TIME.

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My first day in uni, I cried. Funny abi? Because this is the same person that did not allow God rest and was constantly praying back to back for admission not long ago. Now the very thing I prayed for is here. I know I am ready for this big step, but I was so overwhelmed. I remember calling my sister and crying that I wanted to come home. There was nothing I wanted more at that point than going home to my sisters and my father. Going back to my comfortable house where my sister would give me foot massages whenever I was tired or stressed. Where my dad would tell me stories and my boss would pamper me. It was hilarious. One survival hack? Constantly reminding myself that I was working on an answered prayer. Yessss. I did not get here easily. I cannot just run off because it feels hard. It is a huge cultural shift. So when I get hit by waves of overwhelm and I am trying to figure things out and all I want to do is cry, I lift my chin and remind myself that I am walking in an ...
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You will encounter some kinds of brains and you will be like “God create o” because damn it. Some people have two heads. There is nothing anyone will tell me. In fact, they have ten heads. *** A few days ago, I watched a video by Eric Gugua where he talked about the fear of asking people to make space for you. Omor, it felt like a personal attack because I am terrified of asking people to make space for me. I had even written about it. So today, I stepped out. Yes o, madam “I don’t want to inconvenience anybody” asked not just one but two people to make space for her. First was in a crowded class.  Normally, I would just stand if I could not find anywhere to sit. But this day, I wore audacity and asked someone to kindly make space for me and she did. It was not convenient for her, but she willingly shared with me because I dared to ask. Next, I met a group doing a task I wanted to participate in and yes, I asked to be included again. For someone who has lived most of her life waiti...
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Guess what??

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Guess what?? I attended a football match today and I actually enjoyed it. It is not even about attending the match, but the enjoying it part?? If you know me, you know me. I am hardly a fan of sports. While I appreciate it, I do not make an effort to understand it or follow up. So imagine my shock when I realized that the best part of my day was going to a silly football match. It was an inter departmental match, my department against another. Initially, I was not excited at all. I just did not have anything else to do with the free time I had. However, the moment I met the right crowd, everything changed.  You should have seen me jumping, shouting, and laughing. It was so thrilling and exciting. My eyes were literally following the ball, willing it to go in our favour. I wanted our team to win so badly, I almost wished for superpowers just so I could direct the ball into our opponent’s goal post. For me, it was not even about how much fun I had when we won, but how my ...
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BEING IN SYNC.

There is this beautiful thing about nature or maybe life itself. Have you ever had a thought and then suddenly you see it show up in real time? You think of calling someone and they call you. You make a mental note to text someone and they reach out first. It almost feels like everything is quietly aligned, like the universe is breathing in the same rhythm as you. I love to call it being in sync. It is one of my favourite mysteries of life because it feels gentle and intentional, like life paying attention. And yet, there is a soft logic to it too. When someone is already on your mind, your heart and attention are tuned to them.  Your brain connects the dots faster because your attention was already there. It is not magic exactly, but it is not nothing either. There is this person my coach has been urging me to meet since I travelled. I had thought about reaching out several times but there was this quiet reluctance I could not explain. Still, he stayed on my mind. Then this aftern...
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